I struggle daily with inspiration…especially for this blog. I have a ton to say/write, but most of it is so personal that finding the words is hard. Before November 1st and my decision to participate in NaBloPoiMo (National Blog Post Month), I was posting a couple of times a week. I’m not sure why I thought increasing my posts to every day was a good idea. I think this challenge is good for my brain. It makes me work harder and think deeper. The challenge forces me to look at those things in life that I want to talk/write about and actually do it.
But today I’m struggling more than the previous four days and I’m wondering “can I actually do this?” and “do I really have that much to say/write?” In my heart the answer is “yes”, but I’m not sure my heart and brain are connecting right now.
It might have been too much to bite off right now in my life. The month of November will definitely be my busiest month this year…maybe the busiest in several years. I’m making final arrangements to travel internationally for 9 1/2 weeks, I have to finish up all my annual goals at work before I go, my parents are visiting next week, and in my infinite wisdom I thought I should invite my friends over the week before I go to “kick me out of the country”. Oh, and let’s not forget I committed to doing this for both of my blogs.
But, what I’ve found over the years is that I tend to have my biggest successes when all the odds are stacked against me. It’s probably because I’m stubborn and refuse to give up on the nearly impossible.
I hope that those of you that have chosen to follow along on this crazy journey…not just the NaBloPoMo…but, the crazy journey of me living “my life on the perimeter”…will be patient as I struggle with inspiration this month. I’m pretty certain I’ll have some great moments, but I’m also pretty certain I’ll post some crap from time to time. I’m hoping the great moments will outweigh the crap.
Have you struggled with inspiration? What do you think about setting nearly impossible goals?